Shuttered Life

I’ve been thinking this for quite a long time now. I don’t know where to begin. But since its killing me now, I have decided to write this down instead of talking or asking any advises to anybody else. I can say now that this blogging thing is my bestfriend. This is the only way I can spill out on how I feel everyday.

Anyway, the lyrics of this song says it all… Better together by Jack Johnson

So let’s start:
Let’s talk about the woman I love the most. They say love isn’t important without respect and trust. Thats true. Maybe some people might think that I don’t respect her because of what I am doing. But I guess I have a different aspect of showing her how I respect her in a different angle. I trust her, a lot. She is not the type of girl wherein you can just text her and she will reply immediately. I respect her because whenever I am with her, I always make sure that she is the queen in my life. In other words, (binebeybi ko yan and no regrets about that). Maybe in some aspect she thinks that I don’t respect her, but I do. Probably I am not that good on showing her the respect that she needs.

It was a big mistake for me to use that user name because it ruined everything. If only I could turn back time, I will tell her how sorry I am but I know its useless.

I know I have my own faults too as her bf before. And I am not perfect enough but I did my best to change. Now, I am putting this to an end. No shoutouts, no “you did this, you did that” and so on.

I don’t want to remember the fights, the shouts that we did and everything that is not good from our past relationship. Instead, I prefer to remember the way we were before… The happy and unforgettable moments we had.

End of story. Bottomline? I will always love her no matter what. Nobody can ever change that.