Shuttered Life

After 14 days, 2 hours and 3 minutes of waiting, I’m back! Been very busy lately with some personal and serious stuffs. Everyday is a tiring day for me. Never had a chance to post here because of some technical problems.

Bottomline? Its up and will start writing some B.S. in a while.

I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I’m missing you and I’m wishing you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go?
You could have let me know; so now I’m all alone

Girl you could have stayed but you wouldn’t give me a chance
With you not around it’s a little bit more than I can stand
And all my tears they keep runnin’ down my face
Why did you turn away?

So why does your pride make you run and hide
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it’s a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you want it to be

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don’t know what else I can do
Don’t tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I find it just ain’t true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do
I’ll wait for you

Been a long time since you called me
(How could you forget about me)
You gotta be feeling crazy
How can you walk away
(When) Everything stays the same
I just can’t do it baby

What will it take to make you come back
Girl I told you what it is and it just ain’t like that
Why can’t you look at me?
You’re still in love with me
Don’t leave me crying

Baby why can’t we just start all over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance I can love you right
But you’re telling me it won’t be enough

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don’t know what else I can do
Don’t tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I find it just ain’t true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do
I’ll wait for you

So why does your pride make you run and hide
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it’s a lie what you’re keeping inside
That is not how you want it to be

Baby I will wait for you
Baby I will wait for you
If it’s the last thing I do

Baby I will wait for you
Cause I don’t know what else I can do
Don’t tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I find it just ain’t true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do
I’ll wait for you
I’ll be waiting …

This is it, I am writing my sh*t again with my bestfriend, this site. I just want to share the strongest shot that I did in Laiya, Batangas. The subject has been blurred for privacy? Yes indeed. I know she wouldn’t like this if she is visible.

I can say that this is one of my best days I had in my entire life so far… Enough said.

I’ve been thinking this for quite a long time now. I don’t know where to begin. But since its killing me now, I have decided to write this down instead of talking or asking any advises to anybody else. I can say now that this blogging thing is my bestfriend. This is the only way I can spill out on how I feel everyday.

Anyway, the lyrics of this song says it all… Better together by Jack Johnson

So let’s start:
Let’s talk about the woman I love the most. They say love isn’t important without respect and trust. Thats true. Maybe some people might think that I don’t respect her because of what I am doing. But I guess I have a different aspect of showing her how I respect her in a different angle. I trust her, a lot. She is not the type of girl wherein you can just text her and she will reply immediately. I respect her because whenever I am with her, I always make sure that she is the queen in my life. In other words, (binebeybi ko yan and no regrets about that). Maybe in some aspect she thinks that I don’t respect her, but I do. Probably I am not that good on showing her the respect that she needs.

It was a big mistake for me to use that user name because it ruined everything. If only I could turn back time, I will tell her how sorry I am but I know its useless.

I know I have my own faults too as her bf before. And I am not perfect enough but I did my best to change. Now, I am putting this to an end. No shoutouts, no “you did this, you did that” and so on.

I don’t want to remember the fights, the shouts that we did and everything that is not good from our past relationship. Instead, I prefer to remember the way we were before… The happy and unforgettable moments we had.

End of story. Bottomline? I will always love her no matter what. Nobody can ever change that.